I totally know how you feel. What I try to do is REALLY allot time to studying and doing the things I need to do. So for my free time I actually plan things out. Fun things. Rock climbing, corn maize with friends, anything really to change things up.
I need to try this out because I am dying of boredom over here! I was thinking of doing that, just pouring into my books and really start studying for my certification test. Thank you!
Things are really boring for me right now. It’s like I am trapped in some kind of boring ass reality show. I do the same shit everyday(Shower, eat, school, eat, work, eat, maybe gym, talk to bae, sleep), think the same thoughts(I should eat better, I feel fat, let me go to the gym, this shit is boring, I hate being bored, school is argh), and then, do it all over again the next day,
I’m too young to live like this, I feel like my youth is wasting away.
Somehow, some way, I need to find excitement again. I’m not sure how to do that. Or where to go, but I need to freaking get with it.
Because I can’t take this anymore.
So far, so gravy. This morning, I had two slices of leftover pizza. This afternoon, I had the same. Now, I know you may be thinking, “Well, that’s not healthy at all…” and you’re right. However, this first week is less about being healthy, and more about having a healthier, conscious relationship with food.
I am an emotional eater AND I’m a huge snacker. And although I got it under control last year, being on the go and working so much has allowed it to rear its ugly head again. So. I have decided to tackle it again, and the best way is to mindfully eat. Measure everything. And only eat how much is needed to essentially be satisfied.
Which means eating the serving size and that’s it. Until I am hungry, like truly hungry (meaning, I drank some water first before eating.)
This cuts out like…a lot of mindless eating. Like greatly.
So, so far so good. I had a granola bar as a snack a bit ago. When I get home, I’m expecting to be famished, which is fine. I will eat my last slice of pizza, lol, and some veggies.
I’ll update a bit later when I’m done eating for the day.
Dear 15 year old self,
This letter is probably one of the hardest things I have ever had to write in my life..and it is to myself!! The irony! Maybe it’s because you and I are the same yet so different. I look back at you and I want to hug you. At such a young age, you’ve seen so much and handled so much already that it saddens me to tell you that you’re not quite done yet. But the good news is…
1. If he doesn’t answer, don’t keep sending texts. If he wanted to talk to you, he would’ve responded.
2. People will make time for you when they care about you. If he says he’s too busy or constantly cancels his plans, he doesn’t care. People fight for you when they care.
3. Don’t let him touch you on the first date. If he tries, he’s not there for the same reasons you are.
4. You can tell a lot about a person by their favorite book.
5. If he can stomach more than ten straight shots without feeling a thing, he drinks too much.
6. Ask the uncomfortable things. When was the last time he was so high he couldn’t speak? What does he regret the most? Does he drink to remember or to forget?
7. Don’t send pictures unless you want to. If he has to talk you into it, don’t do it. If you hesitate, don’t do it. If you do take a picture, don’t include your face. Keep yourself safe.
8. If you can’t laugh when you’re having sex with him, maybe you aren’t sleeping with the right person. Sex isn’t about tricks and tips and routines.
9. If he hurts you, cut him out. He’s gone, he isn’t coming back, and you don’t need to prolong the pain.
10. Don’t be afraid to open up again. I promise not everyone will love you with a knife behind their back."
-Boy advice from someone who made the same mistakes too often